i need colours in my life

Here i am staring infront of the computer and do not know what to blog about.

Been wanting to update but well, a working life doesn't give me much entertaining life to allow me to blog interestingly.

All i do is work, home and sleep. Same goes for my weekends. Well not that i did not want to hang out a lovely Saturday afternoon at a cafe and relax chatting with my friends. Just that it is almost to the end of the month and i going broke, again. Ain't that just an excuse for majority of the girls in singapore? haha

And its still sometime away from my next pay, my very first full pay. BUT i still have to clear my debts and save some. NOT to get some branded stuff for myself as reward or for an overseas trip. This money is saved for my future studies, if i really decided to.

So money to me really matters. Putting on determination to save as much as possible! So friends, lets not go those attas restaurant and eat k. we go kopitiam. EH! coffee shop also got cheap and good food de ok! :D

Apart from pay day, going to work is the most sian part. Suddenly, there is so much things to do for the last two days of the week. I admit that i got a little stressed up when one of my colleague passed me some work, where i rarely handle and still quite unsure of it.

I know she got pissed and i got stressed. Please understand that i am still learning, this is not a everyday work. It only happens once in a blue moon. So try to be understandable.

*really starting to dislike my work environment. Not the work, but the people there. Maybe i'm still in the mindset of i treat people nice, they will too. But i'm wrong. I just wish that my weekends stays there and monday never arrives.

tangled mind

Today, Tuesday and i thought it was wed. That was my thinking only.
This week is my official 4th week of working which means exactly 1 month.
I don't know why but i feel totally down after one of my colleague kinda got a little "angry" over all those mistakes i made during work. Why i said angry is because she kinda show me her "bu nai fan" face. so i knew it.
But well, i cant totally blame her because its my part of mistake for not checking my work SERIOUSLY enough. i did double check ok! but seriously some of the work given are not taught and only refer to samples. And hello, I'm only guided for 7 working days. Who the hell would be able to get everything hands on so quickly?!
I know, i know, i shouldn't bring my unhappiness from work back home but well I'm just grumbling on her to vent out my emotional feeling today. i just need all the weekends to feel better.

*ps: don't know if i made the right choice in joining a big company where in the beginning i knew smaller companies are better in many ways.
Its time for me to give myself a serious thinking about every decision i made.

to cry or to laugh

This is what a typical working person mindset or rather me only?

Another week passed and that lady who is suppose to thought me has officially left the company. Dumping all her workload to me. Not only that but also all those careless mistakes that she forgot to do it. Frankly speaking, my mind goes blank upon being asked where is the xxx document?

Well 7 days of teaching doesn't mean everything is taught and remembered in my brain. I still get confuse over what to do upon receiving certain papers. Certainly, i cant keep calling her to ask right? And i would probably over rely on her. I HAVE TO BE ON MY OWN.

Well probably if u follow or read my tweets you would have seen me tweeting over how slack i was. But... that was only for the first day. First day on my own. Subsequently, the work load just comes in non stop. Maybe it could be that i am still unfamiliar with the work, thus doing everything slow and steady.

Well I'm not complaining about my work, is just that i have the very stress and tense feeling after noraini left. I'm blur over almost everything. I need some time to adjust my mindset. Overall, its just a job for living. Any other job could be the same. All i want is to let my brain absorbed all the information into my brain and stay there! Time pls pass faster to key all those info into my brain. But that also means, i cant make more mistakes after that. I'm still under probation k!

Shag,

♥Queenie